Let’s talk about sex in terms of playing with one self.Β 

I know!!! you’re all wondering what tha heck!😎, yet for those who know me too well I bet they are saying, ” oh! oh! here she comes….”

This is a topic that I know most people don’t like talking about, and if they do, most likely they will give you the so called ” perfect answers ” like: oh! I don’t masturbate, I don’t touch myself, according to the fruits of the holy spirit, God gave us the fruit of self control, that’s gross!, if I’m not having sex, I don’t need to touch myself, I’m celibate, and the list goes on and on. 

I tried being celibate once for 6 months straight, but I ain’t lying to you…as soon as my body started screaming sexually, plus once I landed into a short term relationship, I pretty much worked out all the tensions that were build inside of me for all the months I denied myself any form of sexual pleasure. πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

During that 6 month period, I was actually fully celibate, and I recall I was praise dancing then @ church .πŸ‘•πŸ‘–

 I Shiro,…lol ( might be it was the holy spirit then that caught me!!! ), had a conversation with my pastor about the issue of masturbation. I aint lying to u! As soon as we had that conversation, of course I got one of those ” perfect answers “, but I felt like 😷 then, and πŸƒ as far and fast as I could, for I felt ashamed of airing my dirty secret. 

I just wanted to grow more into the Lord, yet on a realistic manner, for I do have feelings and hormones that rage esp if I don’t get my ” sex  ” on a daily basis.

You don’t even understand even how many times I have bought the good vibrators.  Maximum I had spent on one though was $50.00, yet I felt guilty after a while of ownership. πŸ’”

Seriously!!! what are we supposed to do since according to  my inner faith with God, I do believe it’s a sin to pleasure oneself, yet I’m not even in a promising life long relationship yet whereby at least it could give me long lasting hope. ☝

On the other hand  when I masturbate, I feel like I’m realising my ” French vanilla juices ” that makes me to feel energized and ready for what the day has installed for me.πŸ™Œ If I don’t! at most times, I find myself walking like a 2 legged chicken.

Furthermore, no amount of great sex can be compared to honestly self – pleasure, but if you combine the 2 together!!!!…. mmmm!😰

As I said earlier, it’s not an easy topic, but honestly what are your opinions about touching one self ?  Please lol I need real hard core answers and not the so called ” perfect answers “, for I had too much of them already! arghh!!

Going back to the story about me praise dancing, even though my passion is also to be a professional worship  dancer, I had to put that on a halt, for I didn’t want to be striked dead at the altar since I knew what I was doing behind closed doors. 

Once I get married, plus get my regular satisfaction,then yes!!! I would love to go back into God 100%. :):):) πŸ’

Thanks for reading by: Shiro Thumbi aka crownshi3.wordpress.com

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Hello my dear readers, my name is Shiro Thumbi aka crownshi12 on Instagram, and crownshi3 on wordpress.com πŸ˜ƒ I'm a mother, daughter, sister, a friend, freestyle dancer, an inspiring author, blogger, motivational speaker, and an entertainer. πŸ˜ƒ I can't erase all the choices I made in my life, thus why I'm taking this time to blog hoping that my personal stories will help us to talk about it, find better ways to go about it, or at most laugh πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ about them and just move on. Most of my stories are from my rough draft I'm working on my book title named Be REAL and lets' TALK about it. πŸ˜ƒ Moreover, hoping you will enjoy it, learn something from it, and please don't get offended by anything, for I will be brutally honest as God gives me the grace to share with you. πŸ˜‰Depending on the story, I might advise you to put your cocktail down., have a piece of napkin to wipe your tears, or runny nose if need be, or at most have a glass of wine, or a shot of tequila while reading my personal stories.πŸ˜‚ Please feel free to comment, share, and my hope is that we can relate to most of the encounters I have been through. Depending on any situation, if you decide to try. lol πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‰πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ be safe, plus think about it, and please!!!! make wiser decisions than I did. haha cheers!!! πŸ˜ƒ

12 thoughts on “Let’s talk about sex in terms of playing with one self.Β 

  1. Bravo to you for breakingthis tabotaboos that have us in shackles. Everyone should be taouching themselves, feeling themeselves, exploring their sexuality without inhibitions. God is not obsessed with ur privates anymore than she is with ur digestion! all that religious stuff is for control and not from God. God gave you a clit that feels pleasure to touch, it feels even better to be touched by another, just like tastes buds in your mouth! a five yr old knows the difference btwn right and wrong, u go poke someone in the eye, wrong, you masturbate at night/morning/break time, healthy!

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      1. Karibu, Church puts ppl in an impossible position, if I have a crush on a girl, I’ve sinned by thought, if I have a wet dream, I’ve sinned! All that does is coz ppl to feel shame/guilt and looking for outside authority to (church and church fathers) guide us to salvation, which u can’t really earn because its impossible to be human and not sin, so we keep begging and are not sure which ‘sins’ have been forgiven which ones have not! Total BS. Christ came to free ppl not bond them to archic rules and taboos..

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    1. 😂😂😂 it’s true!!!! it’s either I’m in God 100%, lol I can’t do it half way…at least I read motivational books to get in signed still with him, but I can’t go to church whereby the preacher preaches about something on what God is telling us to not do for example, and I know right after church I’m going to sin knowingly.
      I don’t like messing with God. His wrath!!!! is something I wouldn’t want to reckon with his anger.
      I prefer going back to him 100% honestly after I get married, for at the moment I know I’m still sinning on some stuff knowingly; moreover, it’s coz I don’t have a choice at the moment either.

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