Let’s talk about sex in terms of playing with one self.

I know!!! you’re all wondering what tha heck!😎, yet for those who know me too well I bet they are saying, ” oh! oh! here she comes….”

This is a topic that I know most people don’t like talking about, and if they do, most likely they will give you the so called ” perfect answers ” like: oh! I don’t masturbate, I don’t touch myself, according to the fruits of the holy spirit, God gave us the fruit of self control, that’s gross!, if I’m not having sex, I don’t need to touch myself, I’m celibate, and the list goes on and on. 

I tried being celibate once for 6 months straight, but I ain’t lying to you…as soon as my body started screaming sexually, plus once I landed into a short term relationship, I pretty much worked out all the tensions that were build inside of me for all the months I denied myself any form of sexual pleasure. 😂😂

During that 6 month period, I was actually fully celibate, and I recall I was praise dancing then @ church .👕👖

 I Shiro,…lol ( might be it was the holy spirit then that caught me!!! ), had a conversation with my pastor about the issue of masturbation. I aint lying to u! As soon as we had that conversation, of course I got one of those ” perfect answers “, but I felt like 😷 then, and 🏃 as far and fast as I could, for I felt ashamed of airing my dirty secret. 

I just wanted to grow more into the Lord, yet on a realistic manner, for I do have feelings and hormones that rage esp if I don’t get my ” sex  ” on a daily basis.

You don’t even understand even how many times I have bought the good vibrators.  Maximum I had spent on one though was $50.00, yet I felt guilty after a while of ownership. 💔

Seriously!!! what are we supposed to do since according to  my inner faith with God, I do believe it’s a sin to pleasure oneself, yet I’m not even in a promising life long relationship yet whereby at least it could give me long lasting hope. ☝

On the other hand  when I masturbate, I feel like I’m realising my ” French vanilla juices ” that makes me to feel energized and ready for what the day has installed for me.🙌 If I don’t! at most times, I find myself walking like a 2 legged chicken.

Furthermore, no amount of great sex can be compared to honestly self – pleasure, but if you combine the 2 together!!!!…. mmmm!😰

As I said earlier, it’s not an easy topic, but honestly what are your opinions about touching one self ?  Please lol I need real hard core answers and not the so called ” perfect answers “, for I had too much of them already! arghh!!

Going back to the story about me praise dancing, even though my passion is also to be a professional worship  dancer, I had to put that on a halt, for I didn’t want to be striked dead at the altar since I knew what I was doing behind closed doors. 

Once I get married, plus get my regular satisfaction,then yes!!! I would love to go back into God 100%. :):):) 💁

Thanks for reading by: Shiro Thumbi aka crownshi3.wordpress.com